Gifts from the Other side

Angels. My mother would often refer to her "Helpers" on the other side and would thank them for parking spaces, help threading her needles as she aged, bringing someone who arrived at the right time to offer directions if lost.

So no surprise, the presence of Angels is real for me.

I don't need to prove it or influence anyone, and if this is bothersome to you readers, by all means, stop here.

During one of my meditations recently, I had a "visitation" with my lovely mother-in-law. She died surrounded by family, in the privacy of their home in 1995. Even during death, she was graceful and kind. She lived a full life. She exuded unconditional love. And she struggled with alcohol.

I sometimes wonder if she saw me from the "other side"; slipping into the daily alcohol pattern, finishing the wine after everyone was asleep, hiding in plain sight what I KNEW wasn't good for me, and offering me her unconditional love.

During this "visitation", she thanked me. Thanked me for showing her that there IS freedom from alcohol without struggle and deprivation. She thanked me for doing the work as it somehow freed her too. (a mystery that rings true for me).

And. And this is what brought me to tears, she thanked me for seeing/knowing her unconditional love that powerfully pierced through IN SPITE OF her fog of alcohol.....

And then I sat in my meditation. And let it sink in. Her love, my love, all love, in its purest/highest sense, is ALWAYS with us. Even when we are in a fog of alcohol. Even when we look back on and cringe about things we have done in the past. There can be regrets AND love. We can see ourselves/others struggle AND love.

There is an inner, holy space that IS. Even when we don't see it or feel it for ourselves.

I sometimes wonder if her love, along with the Angels doing work from other dimensions, was part of the nudge to explore life away from alcohol?

I sometimes wonder how we come to moments of transformation/turning points. (easier to see when looking back?)

How do we get there???

From birth, from life, i know in my bones that transformation doesn't happen from the force of shame/blame/fear.

It is SUPPORT that brings us back to our own authentic human/Mystery entwined Light that plants the questions, with such gentleness: what if your true self is BETTER without substances? What if you ARE with love, just as you are? What if you are ENOUGH?

I am thankful the Ancestors, and the Angels can pierce through the webs of alcohol and fear.

Reach out. What might happen with support and love along your way?

xo Martha