New Changes

Such a year it has been. Living in the limbo of day to day with my husband's terminal illness. Living with the Mystery and deep gratitude for a death so much like a birth. My midwife heart sees the continuity now between life and death with new profound awe.

Living with the day to day strangeness of grief. Going through the first holidays? Everyone warned me they are tricky, tender, emotional, unnerving. Yup. All of that. Add to that my internet went out. My credit card was compromised and I pretty much melted down. The combination of sleep interruptions (sleeping with a 3 and 5yo is WORTH it), eating my weight in chocolate, and missing time in nature, adds to the craziness of the holiday time. And now. And now. SO grateful to be home. My sanctuary of simple living that nourishes my soul.

Long meditations. Walks with the dogs. Spin classes. There is a fragile balance during this grief time. External time with others. Internal time to honor the shifts, the emotions, the new decisions that were once shared with a partner of 45 years.

More than ever, I find myself sipping the sweet surprising moments that come WITH the grief/tender time. Sara Rian puts it so beautifully:

if grief was a bird

i would never cage it.

if grief was a forest

i would never cut it down.

if grief was a winding river

i would never block its flow.

so treat grief as you would treat

every other wild, free, wise,

beautiful thing.

just let it be.

May we all find support and love along our way of surrendering towards the changes we all find in our path.

It is an honor to be part of this circle of giving back. Whether with alcohol, feeling the stress of overload, or finding your way through illness and grief with meaning, I am so deeply grateful that coaching is a way of holding space with you.

I am just a traveller along this wild, free, wise beautiful thing of love.

Join me?

xo

Martha